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Chapter 14. Things get worse before they get better.
I
put Nick on my bed for now and went in to the still warm bathroom and started
the water. I returned to my bedroom and stripped down to my boxer and then Nick
got up and I held him while he slid off his girdle and stepped out of it. The
front of his underwear was soaked and stained.
“Wow
that’s some mess you got there.” I said with a smile.
“Yeah
I know I wonder how it happened.”
We
both giggled.
“Come
one lets get you in the shower.”
“And
you too?”
“Yes and me too.”
I
helped him into the bathroom and then he looked at me.
“Take
them off for me please JR.”
He
put his hand on my back as I bent over to steady himself
and I yanked on them once and down they fell to the floor. He still seemed to
be a little hard but it didn’t show through the underwear. After he stood up I
grabbed mine and pulled them off. He looked at me and I too was semi-hard from
all the fun I had downstairs. Since I did little to myself after that I still
had a partial erection.
“Come
on stop looking at my hardness and let’s get you in the shower.”
“Why
I like looking at your big thing.”
“You
better be careful mister or one day it might bite you right between your butt
cheeks.”
“Mmmmm
I might like that.” He said to me with a sly look on his face.
“I
will remember you said that later as I slide a finger in there.”
I
grabbed him and he lifted his sore leg over the side of the tub and I held him
as he put a little weight on it and followed with his good one. He held the
wall and slid under the water to get wet while I climbed in after him and
pulled the curtain shut. As he got wet I grabbed the wash cloth and soaped it
up.
“Okay
cutie I am going to move the water hose and wash your back.”
“Sure.”
I
started to wash his back and then I did his neck and moved down to just above his
ass. Then I went up and did his left side and he giggled and then his right up
to his pits. He was very ticklish it seemed.
His pit hair was just starting to develop too.
“Okay
turn around.”
“What
about my butt and legs?”
“After I do your front.”
He
held the wall for support again and turned to face me. As expected he was
standing straight out at attention. I looked at it and then up into his eyes.
“That
why you didn’t want to turn around?”
“Hell
no that doesn’t bother me at all anymore.”
“All
I can say it damn it doesn’t take much for you to get hard!”
I
started washing his neck and then did his chest and down to his belly. He
giggled as I ran the cloth over his belly and tickled him once again.
“Shall
I go lower now?”
“PLEASE!!”
I
took the soapy cloth and ran it down his belly and over his fine patch of pubic
hair and then over his jutting out member. I went past it and down under to
wash his balls. He jumped a little as I ran the cloth over them. It must have
tickled or been a bit rough. I then took the cloth and wrapped it around his
hard tool and stroked it clean about five or six times.
“Yeah
you can do that all you want to it really feels great with the soap!”
I
then went down and washed his balls and I must have caught him right because he
stood up on his toes from the touch almost trying to get away from the cloth.
“Feel
weird?”
“Yeah almost like you are tickling them. Really
weird.”
I
spent a little extra time on them just to tease the piss out of him and finally
he reached down and pushed my hand away.
“You
have to stop I can’t take that anymore it’s just too weird.”
“Okay
I will. Turn around I am going to wash your butt squeaky clean so be ready.”
“I
am I promise. That doesn’t tickle nearly as much.”
“Now
I am going to wash you very clean so if I go too far you let me know.”
“Only
if it hurts otherwise I totally trust you JR.”
I
leaned in and kissed his ass.
“Now
you can tell everyone your coach kissed your ass one time.”
He
laughed.
“Yeah
right I can hear them now.”
I
laughed.
“Try
and spread your legs a little bit for me.”
Without
saying anything he moved a leg out some.
“How you feeling? Any
pain?”
“Just
a little but not as bad as it was.”
“Great,
I am glad.” I said.
I
took the wash cloth pushed it through his legs to his balls and he jumped
again.
“JR!”
he sounded mad.
“Sorry
it slipped.”
“Yeah
right…” he scoffed.
I
went back and pulled his cheeks apart and slid the cloth in and went up and
down his butt crack several times. He was quiet now. I had plenty of lather in
there now so I dropped the wash cloth and went in with my fingers and started
to rub up and down nice and slow. After a few passes I asked if he was ready
and he said yes. I took a very soapy finger and gently and slowly slid the tip
in up to my nail.
“How’s that?”
“Weird but okay.”
“Good.”
I
pushed farther and I was in up to a knuckle.
“Now?”
“Still okay.”
“Shall
I go farther?”
“Sure
it doesn’t hurt.”
I pushed again and I was about three quarters
of my index finger into him.
“Wow.”
He said
“Wow
what?”
“Its
starting to feel just weird not hurt but really different.”
“Really
then how does this feel?”
I
wiggled my finger back and forth.
“Ahhhhh!”
he yelled out in a low tone as he moved forward a bit trying to get away from
me..
He
scared me and I stopped immediately pulling out of him.
“What’s
wrong?”
“Nothing…
honest… it just felt really strange but in a good way.”
“Then
watch what you say you scared the crap out of me.”
“Sorry.”
“Okay
I am going back in all the way this time.”
“Okay
JR.”
I
pushed again and this time my entire finger was in all the way.
“Okay
I am all the way in I am going to do a few things. If it hurts tell me.”
“I
will.”
I
started to pull out and push in slowly and then a little faster.
“JR
you are making my dick hard. I am not even touching it and whatever you are
touching inside me is making some kind of pressure on something inside me and
it feels good and it’s making me grow really hard again.”
“That’s
called your prostrate sweetie. I can explain it later but just know for now
that any pressure on it the right way can make you cum sometimes without even
touching yourself.”
“Wow
can you do that to me?”
“I
can try but sometimes it takes a lot of pushing and poking back here to make it
happen.”
“Oh…
well if you wanna try its okay like I said I trust you and I know you won’t
hurt me on purpose. Besides as weird as it feels it kinda feels good too.”
I
wonder if I have an anal boy here. Not everyone like it when you poke around
inside them, that’s for sure!
“Okay
I’ll try.”
I
was rock hard now too from all the prodding I was doing inside his ass. I felt
like I wanted to cum so badly after getting him to cum before and now doing
this but if I do them I might spoil it for Matt. I hate not knowing what to do
now to myself. Well anyway back to Nick.
I
started to push my finger in and out faster and faster but under control.
“I
think you are doing it JR its feeling really good now.”
Every
time I went in I felt around and moved my finger a lot and I think I had what I
wanted. Then I would pull out and push in again with a little more wiggle and
force. I did this about five times and he spoke out again.
“You
are getting me close JR its starting to make me tingle in my balls again.”
Again
I pushed this time just a bit harder and I reached out and grabbed his balls
and started playing with them.
“Ahhhhh,
that’s gonna do it…” he panted to me…
As
I continued to finger fuck his ass I started squeezing his balls more and more
and I could tell he was losing it now big time. He gasped and let out a second
moan. I positioned myself so I could watch and kept going. He was almost there…
no soap no hand and no touch and he was rock hard. His cute four plus inches
stood straight out like he was about to erupt. Seconds later with one last push
and a little more tugging on his balls and he yelped out something I couldn’t
understand and he began to squirt out his load for the second time tonight. Two
nice streams of cum flew out into the shower wall. I pulled out of his ass and
he almost fell onto me as what seemed like a massive orgasm shook his body.
Finally a third shot of cum came out and then he just dribbled the rest out as
he couldn’t quite make a fourth. I was now holding him but only to steady him.
He was totally out of it for a good minute while I waited and steadied him.
Finally he stopped shaking and responded some to regain control of his balance.
Only by guessing I would have to say I gave him something he never had before
in his life the way he reacted just now.
“Oh
my God, Oh my God, Oh my God…” He said it two more times as he looked at me.
I
thought something was seriously wrong. He was red as could be in his cheeks and
he looked almost like he was going to faint.
“JR…
that was… impossible to explain…. WOW!”
He
finally smiled.
“I
guess it felt good?” I said with a smart ass tone.
“Good?
I know I haven’t been able to cum for long but I swear JR I never ever felt
something so powerful and such an awesome, awesome feeling. I swear it took my
breath away and I thought my brain was going to explode out of my head. I was
ready to pass out! Whatever you touched up there I want more. Can you do it
again now… no wait I don’t think I could deal with that feeling again!!…”
He
went on and on like he didn’t know what was happening. I listened and watched
as his cock got soft but still leaked out a little cum. He was totally spent.
“I
guess that was special?” I said as I got up from the bottom of the tub.
“JR
if you never made me feel good again I swear this was the total bomb! The best
I ever felt in my life. WOW!”
He
hugged the stuffing out of me and pushed his soft cock into my thigh. He pulled
away and his cheeks were still a tad red from the overwhelming orgasm I just
gave him. I can only imagine how good it was. He was holding me tightly again
now.
“JR
that was so awesome my leg doesn’t even hurt now.”
I
laughed.
“I
am sure it will in a bit. Come on cute boy lets get that teenage body rinsed
off the water is starting to get cold and I still want to wash.”
“Sure,
sorry.”
He
went under the water and rinsed off and then soaped up the wash cloth and did
my back for me. He didn’t play with my ass he just washed it quickly for some
reason. I turned and he did my front and my cock was standing straight out rock
hard. He washed it with the cloth a few time and teased me. I was so close I
almost came too.
“Do
you want me to get you off JR?”
“Thanks
but no I want to save it for Matt. Next time okay?”
“Sure JR no problem.”
He
was still smiling. He dropped the wash cloth and I rinsed off and then I told
him to make sure the soap was out between his butt or
he would be itchy later. He rinsed again and we both got out just as the water
was getting ice cold. He took a towel and so did I. He was still smiling
nothing could shake that smile off his face right now. Finally we were dry and
out of the shower. I went downstairs and Matt was asleep on the couch. Damn I
bet we won’t do anything now I knew I should have cum in there! Nick headed to
bed I didn’t want him on his leg anymore so I went over next to the cuter of my
two loves Matt and sat down. As I sat the couch moved and it stirred his sleep.
His mouth opened and closed and then his eyes opened.
“Sorry
JR I was tired and you guys took forever I fell asleep.”
“That’s
okay love I understand.”
I
leaned in and placed several kisses on his face and even though his eyes were
closed he smiled at me.
“I
love you Matthew.”
He
opened his eyes.
“I
love you too JR.”
Slowly
he sat up and stretched.
“Will
you hold me for a while please?”
“Sure
sport.”
He
leaned on me, I put my arms around him and gave him a gentle squeeze, and he stayed
there. It lasted a while and he fell back to sleep. As much as I enjoyed it I
couldn’t stay here all night so I had to wake him again.
“Come
on love I need to get in bed.”
“Carry
me up please JR.”
The
things I do… I lifted the heavyweight just enough to get him safely into my
arms.
“Boy
you are getting heavy. Are you getting fat?”
“No
he giggled. I poked at his belly and he started to laugh.”
“Stop…
you are waking me up.”
I
reached down and grabbed his cock through his PJ bottoms. Now his eyes were
open for sure.
“Okay
now you woke me you better make me happy when we get upstairs. You grabbed it
and its getting hard now!”
I
whispered into his ear…
“You
stay awake and I will make you cum and moan…”
He
didn’t say anymore. I reached the top step and went into my room and put him on
my bed as gently as I could.
“Thanks
JR.”
I
smiled at him.
“I
have to secure the house I will be back shortly.”
“Okay
I will try to stay awake.”
I
went and tucked Nicky in and gave him a kiss on his forehead.
“Thanks
JR, nite.”
“Night love.”
I
put on a night light and turned the overhead off and then I headed down and
locked the house, put the lights off and headed back up. I set my alarm and got
into bed next to my sweet boy.
“You
still awake?”
“A
little bit.”
Not
wanting to disturb him I told him to go to sleep. He didn’t say anything. It
was just before 11pm and I knew I wouldn’t sleep much tonight. Damn!!! But it
sure was worth it!
“Okay
cutie good night.”
I
leaned over and kissed his mop. It smelled like fresh shampoo. He didn’t say
anymore and I turned off the light and got under the cover. He rolled over and
reached out for me.
“Rub
me JR, please?”
He
took my hand and placed it on his belly. I did what I could not to tickle him
and he seemed to be okay with it. I thought about going lower but for now this
would do. I was tired and wasn’t sure if I wanted another half hour of sex play
or not…right now. I stopped and pulled him tightly to me and he cuddled into
the curve of my body as I lay on my side.
“That
feels so good. I feel safe here.” He said to me.
I
placed several kisses on the back of his head.
“It
might feel safe but I have never felt anything better this close to me.”
He
giggled a little and it got quiet. My cock softened and we both feel asleep
that way. Almost as fast as I fell asleep the alarm woke me. DAMN! I thought to
myself as I reached over and turned it off… five freaking am already!! Matt was
still close by but not touching me. I rolled over and put my feet on the floor
trying to shake the cobwebs from my head. Finally I got up and stumbled to the
door and into the bathroom. I had to pee. After I flushed I went to look in on
Nick. I walked in quietly but he was awake.
“You’re
up pal?”
“Yeah
most of the night… I got a little sleep but my leg is pounding.”
“Okay
I will be right back I am gonna get you some aspirin.”
“Thanks
JR.”
I
went to get it in the bathroom and brought back some water.
“Sit
up love.”
He
sat up, popped the pills into his mouth, and drank them down.
“Okay
look I have to leave soon but let’s try this. Lay on your back.”
He
did as I said. I put a pillow under his leg and one under his foot.
“Try
that and see if it helps. If it gets worse I want you to call me at the
firehouse okay?”
“Sure
JR.”
“Okay
I have to get dressed I will look in before I go.”
“Thanks.
I turned to walk away…JR?”
“Yeah cutie?”
“I
love you, thanks for taking such good care of me and thanks for that awesome
feeling last night I can still feel you doing it.”
I
smiled at him.
“You’re
welcome love.”
I
went back in my room and dressed. Matt didn’t move an inch. After I dressed I
kissed his forehead and left the room shutting the door behind me. He was an
angel sleeping there. I tried not to use too much light but he didn’t move
anyway so we were good. I went over to check on Nick. I went in just a little
and he turned to me.
“Feel
better?”
“Not
really.”
“Okay
well like I said if it still hurts call me. If I have
to I will take you into the hospital and they will x-ray your leg.”
“Okay
I will, I promise. Bye JR.”
“Bye
love.”
I
shut his door too and headed downstairs it was 5:40 and starting to get light outside
as I left the house. It was barely a ten minute drive so I stopped and got
coffee and then headed in. No sooner then I got in the alarm went off. I got
two sips of my coffee and we were out the door heading to an accident on the
highway. We got there and we had a roll over with entrapment. The other engine
company was trying to pry the door open and we hooked up for the gas that was
leaking from the tank. They couldn’t get the door open and the gas was starting
to leak seriously. It was becoming dangerous now. Two of the guys worked on the
door as we sprayed a fog of water on the leaking gas. You could hear the woman
inside moan in pain but we couldn’t do much to stabilize her at the moment with
so much danger. Finally after five minutes of prying the door popped. We were
just about to get the Jaws of Life and pry it open with pressure but that was
risky too. We didn’t need any sparks right now. They cut her belt and held her
as best as could be after putting a neck brace on her and brought her out and
to the ground a good thirty feet away. We waited for a tow to come and kept the
gas as diluted as possible. Finally a tow showed and pulled the car back over
onto its wheels and that stopped the leak and we were able to open the highway
up on two lanes and stop the five mile backup from getting any worse. Another
forty minutes and we were done and heading back to the station. We got in and I
heated my coffee in the microwave for a bit and finally got to drink it. We
were all sitting and chatting at the kitchen table. There isn’t much to do in
the morning before 9am so we just chatted about the aftermath of the tornado
the other day. One of the guys asked me how Nicky was doing and if he was
missing his father so I explained that to him and the others listened. That
made the whole place totally somber including the captain who was sitting with
us for a while when they heard about the abuse and all. Thankfully an alarm
came in for a lockout and it broke the monotony some. The engine headed out for
someone who couldn’t get back into their house over on Sylvan St. We like these
because usually no one is at risk to get hurt. We arrived to a woman standing
outside in a bathrobe and her hair in curlers. She was mad and a bit frantic
and needed to get back into the house and get to work. She went out to get the
paper and apparently the door shut behind her and locked. It took the guys five
minutes to get inside through an open window on the second floor after she
begged us not to break the door down. She thanked us and we headed back to
quarters. When we got back we were there for no more then ten minutes when the
phone rang. Someone yelled for me and it was Matt.
“JR
Nicky is in pain and he said he can’t move his knee we need you here now.”
“Okay
you hang in there I will be there shortly.”
I
hung up the phone and turned around the guys were all looking at me and the
captain asked what was wrong.
“Capt
we need a still alarm at my place Nicky got hurt last night at the scrimmage
and his leg is worse now.”
“No
problem Scott. You and Roberts take the rig and we will call for the ambulance
to meet you at your house.”
“Thanks
Capt.”
We
scrambled to the squad and took off while the captain called for the ambulance
in the background. We were there in five minutes and Matt was at the door. I
went in and Roberts followed me. He is an EMT too but in training. We rushed
upstairs and Nick was in bed and I could see the pain in his face.
“I
am here Nicky. I checked his leg and it was swollen. Just relax pal we are
going to take you into the hospital.”
I
stabilized his leg with a brace from the truck and we waited on the ambulance.
“Matt
I want you to go next door and stay at Bastions when we leave okay?”
“Sure JR no problem.”
He
stayed with is until the ambulance got there and they brought a stretcher up
and secured him into it. The hospital had us start an IV to ease his pain and
by the time we were bringing him down he said he was feeling better. Bastion and Bonnie was outside the door when
we wheeled him out on the gurney and I quickly told her what was happening.
“I
know JR Bastion told me he got hurt last night I was going to check on him this
morning but by the time I got here you beat me. I’m sorry I had errands to
run.”
“Forget
about it Bonnie its fine Matt had it under control.”
She
smiled at Matt.
“You
did good young man.”
“Keep
him with you for now okay Bonnie I’ll call you from the hospital and let you
know what is going on if possible.”
“Sure
JR.”
“Thanks
Bonnie. See you later Bastion.”
I
went with him in the ambulance and called his mom while we were on the way in.
She was a little upset but understood these things happen. When I told her it
wasn’t serious she sounded a little better. She was heading in and would meet
us in the hospital. We arrived there quickly and they wheeled him into ER. I
had Roberts call in and tell the captain we will be back in service as soon as
Nick’s mom arrived. He said no problem we were covered, we should take our
time. He was a real softie at heart even if he yelled sometimes. Nancy came
over, she was on duty and she saw me and immediately came over to see what was
wrong.
“Hi JR.”
“
“Yes
I see what happened?”
“Football injury from last night. I didn’t think it was
serious but he is still in pain.”
“Okay
we will take good care of him. She looked at Nick and smiled. I remember you
from last week Nick. Sorry you are back again.”
“Yeah me too. Thanks though.”
“How’s
the pain?” I asked.
“Better
now since they put the needle in me.”
“Good
mom is on the way and I will be here till she gets here.”
“I
am glad you are here JR.”
A
doctor came over and gave it a look. He knew me from being here so often.
“JR
you seem to be here a lot lately.”
“Hi
doc, yeah I know.”
He
looked at Nick and the nurse filled him in. He felt his leg carefully and
checked it out.
“We
need an x ray and then we will know more but I honestly think it’s just a
bruise right now. No promises until I can see more.”
“Thanks
doc.”
“You
are welcome JR.”
He
moved on to his next patient I looked at
“It
pays to have friends. I said, he came over fast.”
“Yeah
you aren’t kidding. Most would have had to wait an hour or more just for that
normally.” She said.
I
smiled at her and looked at Nick. Just then his mom came in. She looked a bit
frantic. She looked at me and then at Nick and went over to hug him.
“How you feeling baby?”
“Better now mom. I am glad you are here.”
She
hugged him again.
I
was going to come and see you today but not here. I would have liked to visit
at JR’s house.”
“Sorry
mom.”
“Oh
nonsense, she said I am just glad you are okay.”
“I
am too mom.”
“Okay
sport we are going back in service so my captain doesn’t get mad. Mom will take
care of you. I looked at her, and call me later.”
“Sure
I will JR thanks again for taking care of him.”
I
leaned in and gave her a kiss.
“He
has been an absolute angel Margaret I love having him there.” I said quietly
into her ear.
“Thanks
JR I need to talk to you about that anyway something has come up but I don’t
want to talk here so how about after work?”
“Sure
I’ll be done at 2pm.”
“Okay
I will be at your place with Nicky then. Thanks.”
I
waved to Nick and her and walked out with Roberts. We called back in service
and headed back to the station. After backing the squad in it was already 11:30
and most of the day was over. The engine went out on a brush fire while we were
gone otherwise it was quiet. We were sitting for lunch now and it sure smelled
good. We ate and did some chores around the station. Around 1pm the phone rang
it was Margaret, someone yelled out to me.
“Hello,
yes hi Margaret. How is he?”
“He
is okay the x ray came back with no break just a bad sprain. I am taking him out
for lunch and then we will see you after two.”
“Great,
thanks for calling I feel better now. See you in a bit.”
“Okay
JR, bye.”
“Bye.”
“So
he is okay Scott?”
I
turned and the Captain was there.
“Yes
sir, thanks he is fine it’s just a bruise.”
“I
am glad, that boy has gone through way too much to have more problems.”
“I
agree, thanks Capt.”
I
went back to my chores and at 1:30 an alarm came in. We headed to the truck and
started out. Something with a car fire on
“I
went next door for a bit and Bastions mom told me I could come back here after
I promised her I would be okay so I just watched TV.”
“No
problem big guy, you know I trust you. Hey Margaret, Nicky
how you feeling big guy?”
“Better
thanks. The doctor game me some pain pills and said no practice for a while.”
“Yeah
I already knew that but it never hurts to hear it from the doc.”
I
looked at Margaret she smiled at me.
“So
what’s so important you had to come here?”
“Can
we go somewhere so I can talk privately JR?”
“Sure.
You boys stay here we are going outside for a bit.”
“Yes
sir.” Matt said.
“Okay,
I really can’t go anywhere for now.” Nicky said.
I
went out back on the porch with her. We sat down.
“What’s
wrong Margaret?”
“Well
JR I hate to ask but…here goes… I have exhausted everything and for now the
insurance company isn’t budging on the claim until they check things out
further. When that bastard killed himself in the house he did more bad than
good so they are really giving me a hard time so I am not getting a penny for
at least another week. I wanted to know if you minded if Nick stayed here for
that time.”
I
smiled.
“Are
you serious? I’m sorry about the problem but I love having him here sure its
fine. We are getting along very well.”
“I
know JR he told me he has never been happier. Thank you so much for all this.
It’s been a long time since I saw such a big smile on Nicky’s face and that’s
even with his leg hurting. So you really are okay with this?”
“Totally,
I love the company and Matt loves having someone his age around.”
“Oh
speaking of Matt how is Eileen?”
“I
think okay but I haven’t had a chance to check today. As of yesterday she was
supposedly improving from the poisoning her body took.”
“That’s
good news I hope she is okay. I met her a few times at sporting events and we got
along well. Please send her my best JR when you see her.”
“Sure
I gladly will.”
Just
then the phone rang.
“Excuse
me Margaret, I got up and answered it. Hello this is JR. Yes… oh I see, oh no!!
Oh this is horrible… okay thanks for calling I will tell him Mary. Yes we will
be over as soon as we can. Yes at the hospital. Sure… I understand. I will tell
him. Yes. Bye,”
I
hung up the phone and walked over to Margaret.
“What’s
wrong dear? She said to me. You look like someone just died.”
I
looked at her. She read my mind.
“Please
tell me that what I said isn’t true…”
“I
wish I could. That was Mary, Matt’s aunt. Something went horribly bad and
Eileen died an hour ago.”
A
tear ran down my cheek and I looked at her and she was extremely upset.
“How
am I going to tell Matt Margaret? How?”
“I
don’t know JR but you are strong I know you can handle it.”
I
was at a loss for words but this had to be done now.
“Margaret
I am going to bring him out here will you go in with Nicky?”
“Of course dear. I will be here if you need
me.”
“Thanks
I just might need you.”
I
wiped the tears from my face as did she too and I went inside. Nicky looked at
me and saw something was wrong immediately. Matt has gone upstairs to the
bathroom and I had to wait.
“What’s
wrong JR?” he said.
“Matt’s
mom died an hour ago.”
He
immediate started sobbing. His mom went over and sat next to him trying to
comfort him.
“I
am gonna go upstairs and tell him there.”
“Sure
JR do what you have to. We will be here for you.”
She
held Nick and consoled him as I turned to go upstairs. By the time I hit the
top step Matt was there and he heard the crying downstairs.
“What
happened? When I left everything was okay.”
I
looked at him.
“Come
with me bud.”
I
put my arm around him and we walked into my bedroom and I shut the door.
“JR
you are scaring me what happened?”
I
went over and sat next to him on the bed.
“Sweetie
while you were in the bathroom your Aunt Mary called.”
“Really? Is my mom okay?”
“No
honey I am afraid she called to tell me that your momma passed away a little
while ago.”
“NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!”
“Please???
PLEASE JR… Tell me you are teasing me! Tell me you are lying… tell me she is
okay… please??”
“NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!”
He
buried his head into my chest and began crying uncontrollably. I too was crying
as I held him. I just let him go and he didn’t do anything more than whale and
cry for a good five minutes. I just held him tightly and tried to do whatever I
could to console him. He was shaking horribly as I squeezed him to me, he
wrapped his arms around me and cried some more. After a good fifteen minutes I
finally got him somewhat under control. He finally pulled away from me and I
handed him some tissues. He wiped his face.
“What
happened? You said it wasn’t a bad operation and when I talked to her she was
okay yesterday. What happened?”
“I
don’t know sweetie, I just don’t know. We can go to the hospital and see her if
you want.”
“NO!
Ummm okay…. No I can’t. I don’t want to…. I don’t know what to do!!!” he
started crying again and again I held him tight and let him get it out of his
system.”
I
felt like I wanted to die. So many things and questions crossed my mind. Who
was going to care for him now? Would Mary want him back, would his father come
back? What am I going to do if his father wants him now that she is dead? I was
flooded with emotions and questions I couldn’t answer myself. Finally he
stopped crying, got up and went into the bathroom to be alone for a bit. I wiped
my face and headed down to Margaret and Nicky. She came over and gave me a hug
and Nick waved me over and gave me one too. They had both been crying I could
see it in their eyes. About five minutes later Matt came downstairs and he
seemed better until he saw Margaret and then he just let loose again and ran to
me and held me tightly. I carried him to the couch and sat down and held him.
This wasn’t going to be easy at all. Nicky was at the other end of the couch
and trying his best not to cry for his friend and I was trying my best to calm
him down some. After a minute he broke away from me and sat up.
“I’m
okay... I have to be okay for my brother and sister… he sniffed back tears and
looked at me. Can we go to the hospital and see her JR?”
“Sure
we can pal. Sure we can.”
I
looked at Margaret and didn’t know what I was going to do with my couch ridden
boy over there.
“Look
JR I have nothing to do for the next few hours. I’ll call my sister and tell
her what happened and stay here with Nick.”
“That’s
great, thank so much.”
“It’s
fine JR. I should be the one thanking you. Go take that sweet boy to see him
momma and we’ll be okay here till you get back.”
“Thanks,
come one Matt lets go.”
It
was just after 3pm when we reached the hospital. We went inside and I found
“I
am going to leave you here JR. Eileen is inside and you can stay as long as you
want. By the way Mary left about twenty minutes ago. She didn’t seem very
happy.”
“I
am sure, thanks
She
walked away and I went to go inside by Eileen. Matt grabbed me and pulled me
back.
“I’m
scared JR… really scared big time. I don’t wanna see mamma this way but I know
I have to. Will you hold me; I mean be close to me?”
“Of
course love, I will be right next to you.”
“Okay
then lets do this.”
I
opened the door and we walked in slowly and cautiously. She was still in the
bed that we saw her in last time but alone this time. It was deadly silent in
the room as we approached the bed. So far Matt was holding it together just
fine. We walked up to her and he stopped. He looked at her from about six feet
away and he couldn’t move any closer. I put my arm around him and told him it
was okay.
“Come
on Matt its okay nothing is going to happen.”
“No
JR…No I can’t do it. I want to but I can’t. My legs won’t let me get any
closer.”
“That’s
okay sweetie you can do whatever you want to.”
I
stood there waiting on him but no matter how hard he tried he couldn’t take
another step towards his mom. After about five minutes he looked at me and was
as white as a ghost.
“I
am ready to go now JR, I have seen enough.”
With
that I took him and put my arm around him and we walked out of the room and
headed down to the truck. The entire time he didn’t say much of anything or
cry. I drove all the way home and we got inside. Margaret met us at the door
and tried to smile. It was close to 4pm when we got back. Matt went directly
upstairs to be alone for a bit and I sat down with Margaret for a little while.
Nicky had fallen asleep on the couch which was probably for the best. About ten
minutes after I got home the door bell rang. I went and opened the door. It was
Bastion and Tommy.
“Hi
guys come on in but be quiet Nick is asleep in the living room.”
“Sure
coach…”
They
walked in quietly and finally Tommy spoke up.
“Coach
what’s wrong did something happen here it feels like something did.”
“Yes
I am sorry to say but no one knows yet other then us .
Obviously you know Nick is hurt and won’t be at practice tonight and neither
will I.”
“Why not coach?” both asked.
“Because
Matt’s mom died today and I have to be here with him.”
Neither boy knew what to say and Bastion looked like he was
going to cry.
“Wow
coach we are sorry to hear that.” Bastion said to me.
“I’m
going home to tell my mom.”
“Okay
pal you do that.”
“Tommy
are you staying here or going with him?”
“If
its okay I would like to be here for Matt.”
“Sure
pal. He should be down in a bit.”
“Okay.”
He
went and sat at the kitchen table not wanting to bother Nicky; he looked at
Nick for a second but didn’t do anything else. No sooner did I go to be with
Tommy the doorbell rang again. I went to answer it and it was Bonnie and
Bastion.
“Hi
JR, Bastion just told me what happened. I am so sorry to hear that how is
Matt?”
“He
is upstairs and taking it pretty badly. I am going to check on him in a few
minutes. Please come in.”
“Thanks.”
They
went in and Bonnie started talking to Margaret while Bastion went over by Tommy
and sat at the kitchen table too. I went upstairs to find Matt. I entered my
room and he was on the bed half asleep. I sat next to him and rubbed his belly
a little.
“Hey
love…. Wake up.”
He
opened his eyes.
“Hey
JR what’s up?”
“Tommy,
Bastion, and Bonnie are here to see you they want to tell you how sorry they
are.”
“Oh
okay I guess I have to go downstairs then.”
“You
don’t have to do anything you don’t want to sweetie but it would be nice to see
your friends.”
“Okay
I’ll go.”
I
walked him down and immediately Tommy and Bastion came over to him and tried
their best to do something. It was odd and sweet at the same time because they were
all boys and at the age where they tried to be macho and still kids. They
patted him on the back and did what they could saying they were sorry.
“Thanks
guys. I’ll be okay eventually.” He said strongly.
Then
he looked at Bonnie. He had known her for a few years with sports and all. She
had driven him home from practices a few times… hell many times. He went over
to her and she hugged him and he finally broke down and once again began to
cry. She held him while he let it out and I felt a little better knowing he
wasn’t holding it all inside and bottling it up. Bastion and Tommy both came
over to me and I put my arms around both of them and gave them a hug. Nicky
woke up with all the commotion and saw what was happening. He wanted to get up
but his mom told him to stay put for a while longer.
“Its
okay sweetie stay put till 5pm like the doctor said then you can get up some
and walk around on the crutches.”
“Okay
mom.” He sat still and watched from his seat.
Finally
Bonnie calmed him down some and he broke away from her and wiped his face.
“Thanks
for coming over Bonnie,” he said.
“Your welcome sweet boy. If you need anything at all
you just let me know. I will be here for you I promise.”
“Thank
you Bonnie.”
“I
have to call coach Fergus and tell him what happened. I said. I almost forgot.”
I
grabbed my cell and went out on the back patio and rang him. I filled him in on
everything and he was sad and upset but he understood he wouldn’t have Matt or
Nicky tonight. He sent his best and we hung up. I walked back in and tried to
lighten the mood.
“Is
anyone hungry?”
That
seemed to do it. Both Tommy and Bastion immediately said yes. I looked at Nick
and then Matt.
“I
could eat.” Nick said.
I
looked at Margaret.
“HE
can always eat. She said. You can take him out after five JR the doc wants him
off it for a bit more.”
I
looked at my watch it was 4:30. then I looked at
Bastion and Tommy.
“I
would love for both of you to come with us but I am sorry boys you both have practice
in an hour.”
They
both sighed.
“I
almost forgot with everything…” Tommy said,
Bonnie
got up from her seat.
“Come
on boys lets go back home and I will give you both something quick and light to
eat before practice.”
“Sorry
guys.” I said.
They
both waved and Bonnie went over and gave Matt a kiss and hug before they left.
Margaret got up from her seat.
“I
am gonna go too JR I need to get back to the other brats.”
That made Nick laugh. I gave her a hug and then
she went over to Matt and gave him one too.”
“See
you all soon.” She said and she kissed Nicky and then left.
I
was once again left with Nick and Matt.
“Okay
boys at 5pm instead of practice we will go to dinner.”
They
both agreed. Then my phone rang. It was Mary and she wanted to talk to Matt. I
handed him the phone. He listened and said very little. When he finally hung up
the phone he was upset again.
“What
happened love?”
“Aunt
Mary is being a jerk. She said that tomorrow at 2pm they are going to have the
wake for my mom and she wants me there. She told me to ask you if you could
bring me to her home tonight so she can get me dressed for the wake.”
“Well
Matt I have to work tomorrow so I can’t argue with her but I will be there for
you right after work okay?”
“Yeah
I guess.” He said.
“So
tonight I will bring you over and drop you off at her house. Did she say any
time she wanted you there?”
“Yes
by 8pm and it SUCKS!” he yelled out.
I
wasn’t quite sure but I think he is just mad that he has to go there.
“Look
Matt I know you are upset but don’t you think your brother and sister need you
right now?”
He
looked at me. I had him cornered with logic… after all he did love them.
“Yeah
I suppose you are right. I should be with them now. I am their big brother and
I need to be with them JR.”
“I
know love. You are their BIG brother and I am sure they could use your help
right now understanding what happened to their mom.”
I
gave him a quick hug and we went over and sat down.
“Let’s
just relax till 5pm and then we can go have some dinner.”
“Okay
JR.” Matt said.
We
sat next to Nick and watched some cartoons on TV for the next twenty minutes. I
put an arm around both boys and both boys leaned on me while we watched TV. All
was quiet now but I have a feeling some real trouble is stirring at Mary’s
house and its not going to be fun at all.
To
be continued….
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